Love yourself

I'm quite busy lately with my job. It takes me away for a while from thinking about my next destination. There are lots of things to do before the day. I make my own list. Hoping I can make it in time because after that I don't believe it's necessary for me pursue the list nor meeting it. Gosh, the list is so pack and complex at the same time.

Figuring what is next to come eagering me to move on. Guess life is not that easy after all. Life is not that perfect when we haven't got its meaning. It's up to us dechipering all of its meaning.

For some my life is easy as it sounds. The path is so smooth. As for me, I can't justify the value of it. I tend to harmonize it to suit my evey need. I love what going on with my life, every challenge and trouble I face everyday. Without it, life wasn't that interesting anymore. I face every difficulty without ignoring myself. I tried my luck even though in the end things didn't go my way. I get that satisfaction rather than holding myself and quiting with excuses. Just say whatever you want but I believe life must be like that. With challenge and barrier, man will never set foot on the moon. Trust yourself when others didn't. Don't think that life is simple as yourself. Simple life is good when things happen smoothly. It would be simple as it if life full of 'surprises'. To simplify my life, I get everything done in front of others.

There are time when had to let life drifts us along and fight from being drown. There are time when we have to hold on to something when we are not strong enough to fight. As for me, I have to let go everything I have just for another chance in life. I know I can't bear the burdens on my shoulders alone.

Never bother about others when they never appreciate what they're having. Love yourself. It doesn't mean that you're being selffish. When you love yourself, you love those who are around you because you yourself need to love and being cared. That's what 'love yourself' means.

Summon me...

Whenever you need me.... I'm always here for you
Keep me close to you, I wish not to lose you... Deep in my heart, there is a sorrow.. Keeping me away though my smiles always spurs out of nowhere...
I always have this fear... Fear of losing myself.. Losing all these wonderful precious memories....
I'm helpless, hopeless...
I just let the life leads me wherever it go...
If your ever know me, rememmber me...
Don't ever forget me though I never know you...
Now I'm here reminiscing my past, the glory of the prouds, the glory of the forgottens..

Probably my last call

It has been a while I haven't update anything in this blog. This blog is like a journey's diary.

I had made the biggest decision in my life. I'm the person who lives in the past. The get over with it, I need to leave it behind. Though I'm going to miss all the moments treassured.

There is no use to keep it. Recent event trigger my conscience to do so. I'm greatly stunned and devastated by such 'action' done by those whom my heart cared the most.

I might be weird for me being blurred by that time. I hope everyone will understand it. It's about time I 'give' what's inside. All the memories... What a life I had been through, I can make last call...

Few weeks left before the moments arrive in front of my eyes. Guess I'm not that lucku. I can accept that. I can't say sorry nor thank you. Just let life be like that. Perfect in its way; fragile and unique.

I have a new journey after that. Journey of life. Can't describe it yet. Hope the treatment is not that harsh. Same as always, the same with new perspectives. Gosh, I can't imagined it as I count the days left...

God I'm thankful for all your bless. Thanks for the great sorely imperfect life...

Show me the paths cause I might get lost along the way. I'm want to do everything I possibly could in life. Achieved what most people desire to.

I hope this is the best decision I ever made, for good and rest of it.